HIII uh okay blog. first of all i am extremely musical piled rn and its kinda a problem im listening to the full ride the cyclone recording every day LOL minus that ive been watching a lot of jjba for a bet... i will finish before dec 16

irl stuff tho hm. i starting going to this queer gamedev workshop and its been really fun! im going to one in a few hours actually so im excited for that :3 oh and im working with my fav co-worker today so that is even more awesome

im trying to think about my future more and get comms up again so i can be ready for the big number and be a cool adult. its pretty stressful considering the situation right now and whatever trump is trying to throw at the usa but! we go on despite the extremely scary government situation we're in!

ok enough politics ew OH i got finch again! me and finch have a lovely relationship i just quit it too often...... ive been going for 14 days tho so far 🤞 hopefully i can stay faithful

OH YEAH i also starting hand sewing! i even made a cosplay from thrifted things which was awesome and really fun to do! it was zoey from kpdh hehe but yeah it turned out really well i think. i def want to sew more.... i starting making these felt plushies and i need a bunch of them right now i adore them . anyways crafting is peak

okay i think im done now. drink water be safe love you

happy birthday to me :) i am now concerningly close to a certain age i am not mentally ready for! huzzah!

on a more serious note, i genuinely cant tell if life has been better or worse. i mean, generally i think this year was better then the hell that was 2024 but it isnt by a lot. especially with current world events and all that im just always stressed out and i really hate looking at the news and being force fed it every day

like, i understand maturing and all that but i feel like newer generations wont even be able to be kids anymore. but maybe im just projecting lol

anyways, less about current world events and more about me. (yay!) a lot of cool things have happened, and i feel like im improving a little! i really pray that these improvements stick this time because whats the point if i can never remember, haha

AND big things have happened for the #tech nerds! i finally got an actual pc (like a real, shiny desktop one) anddd i also got a wii i havent modded yet! im planning to, but i misplaced the sd card i think unless i just forgot to buy it in the first place-- anyways. the new pc has been epic and awesome and i can play games now at good fps!! yippee!!

and that leads into the next thing too, im actually working on a game jam rn! as in im updating this site to procastinate on writing and doing art for said jam sfkmdsmfok but its turning out really well methinks... i really hope i can be able to finish and publish it this time!

other things.... im still going strong at my job and just recently got a raise! and its finally fall time so all of the cool holidays can start rolling in.. anddd i am also hoping to start my yt soon as well! i have premire pro (legally) and everything so im excited for that as well ^^

okay i think thats it for me. so far lifes going.. fine a solid 7.4/10 but for the world its probably in the negatives ausnjak im really just trying to keep my head up as much as i can! as always hydrate or die straight, see you all later

hi its another blog post. who wouldve seen that coming! atp im just giving up on doing these consistently, you'll get a blog post from be when i feel like it, i guess lol. anyways how have i been? um. all over the place really! we've moved again (second move documented on my blog) and im working which im not sure if ive updated about yet! i work at a ice cream place and its pretty fun, if not a bit boring sometimes. us moving though has made it kind of a hassle to get there, so im not sure how much longer i can keep the job if this keeps on being an issue sadly :( hopefully it'll turn out okay tho!

ive also been working on some projects of my own. minus doing my normal modding things (which ive finally released) ive been trying to make a game similar to the one i mod for, which has been pretty fun! im not sure if im ever going to release it for multiple reasons, but i think its a really good way to learn the engine im using more and im learning a lot i think! besides that game though, im also working on a lot of character lore and ref sheets for artfight this month. hopefully i dont lose motivation too early lol

now im just rambling BUT i also want to talk about my babies. my little guys. my consoles.... i LOVEEEE taking photos on my vita and 3ds. the images below are just random food pics from my 3ds, i usually take more on my vita but i dont feel like getting those files rn haha...

images here! sorry i spread my blogs out so much lol

idk if you can tell! but i really like food and taking photos of food :D i find it fun it still reminds me of places i went with people i love just in a different way then photos with their faces, yk? anyways.... i took a 3 hour break in between writing this so whatever i wanted to say last time i have now forgotten LOL so just have some more 3ds screenshots below and i will bid you adieu.....

last link sorz

okay so ngl this month has been! pretty bad honestly its not the strongest start to 2025 but its liveable i guess. we've been kinda struggling really with various stuff but overall i feel like im doing... okay. im def living

i guess ive been thinking about death a lot? which truthfully im not entirely sure why. i mean i know everyones going to die and that im going to die someday but i think the prospect of not knowing whats after death has been scaring me lately, esp when im trying to sleep lol

but thats besides the point i dont know why ive been thinking about it so much but i had to put the thought out somewhere. just saying if i randomly die in my sleep or something please play the edgeworth dl-6 theme at my funeral it will be so funny

OKAY not talking about all this death lol, making the new site has been really fun! its been cool to finally learn how to use frameworks and stuff like that to make the site even cooler :D honestly im decently happy with how its turning out so far

and uhhh... idk ive been watching murder drones which has been pretty good, i watched ofmd not too long ago which still makes me sad thinking about it, and maybe someday i'll actually watch loki

SPEAKING OF LOKI, ive been playing marvel rivals and it bangs ngl, its super fun even though i never play sweaty games like this (no offense) even though i get comments about how my healing sucks every game ;p

okay i think im done. honestly so far this month gets a 6/10 not bad but certainly not good. maybe it'll turn around soon

alr im done now goodbye chat hydrate or die straight

if i'm real, this year low-key kinda sucked.

when it didn't just straight up suck, it was so nothing. i mean i didn't do anything that i thought was meaningful— just kind of lazed around. which i guess isn't necessarily bad but it didn't make me feel very good, you know?

i want to change next year. i want to do things, more things, even if i'm scared or i fail or it succeeds, i want to stop being so scared to do things.

i want to be a game developer. i want to be a youtuber. i want to be a better artist. i want to have a etsy shop. i want to be proud of myself.

i did things to try to start that this year, i did a game jam, i had a successful youtube short, i did more art studies, i made a bunch of stickers. i'm not going to discredit what i did achieve, but i feel like i didn't try that much.

i look back at what i did this year, and as "proud" as i am now, i know i can do better. that i have it in myself to do things that i can look back at and smile.

not counting the things that happened this year ofc. i moved, he left, the 2024 election results, just everything. i'm happy i survived, but i would prefer if 2025 wasn't as horrible!

i want to be happier, for myself. i want to be a better person. i want to be someone my brother can look up to. i want to be a good example.

i want to be proud.

that's my new year's resolution, i guess.

i hope if you're reading this, you're proud of yourself. if you aren't, there's always time to improve. i believe in you.

i love you :)

hello chat we are so back lol. im mostly just making this post to test an image function! i also want to make it so it'll link to a full blog post if i want to make in depth ones?

in relation to the memes i really want a 3ds i mean it is consuming my brain guys im not okay about this thing. since this is a blog i guess i'll ramble about my past........ this 3ds thing hasnt actually started this year it started about 5 years back when yuB made his tomodachi life series and MAN did i really want to play tomodachi life. ive thought a few hundred times about pirating it on my pc but i just couldnt it doesnt feel right

im still on my grind working on this site :D but then i move. bbut THEN i work and keep on trying to get commissions for this thing i WILL. and if i have to i'll start looking for a job somewhere i will get this thing you guys i am praying . and im going to get it

okay peace homies

okay so. a lot of stuff has happened in the last month for some reason. dont know why all of this right now but hey you know life has its twists and turns???? first thing is im moving from my house we've had for 3 years. typing it out it doesnt seem like that long, but the normal time we spend in one house is usually a year. maybe a little more, maybe a little less. tbh im not really scared of the change? sure its going to be WEIRD, ofc it will, but im so used to it im pretty excited. and also kinda not idk how to put it

next, i cant tell if ive been improving uh. i guess my daily life? bare minimum i now make my bed almost everyday. ive been talking to my friends a little more frequently. im still keeping up with at least 1 app i downloaded from last month (shoutout finch 2.0). anddd im still knee deep in projects. ive been trying to learn python, too, so i guess thats an extra bonus. idk in my head i feel like im so lazy but techically i am DOING stuff, it just doesnt feel like anything. wish i could try to fix that but it doesnt seem to go away so sucks to suck. not sure why im ranting so much, i mean it is my blog but i hate to be so down, oh well

on a bit of a higher note, next time i blog i'll probably be one year older and MAYBE have a "fall" job. as much as im excited for it, im also kind of not? i feel so eh to birthdays now but celebratings always fun so theres that to look forward to! ive also been watching detroit become human which has been pretty fun/depressing lol. also appearently some rare blue moon tonight. and i think thats all gang wow i really rambled. ok bye

HII guys im actually in my self care era rn. ive gotten a few apps to hopefully maybe try to fix my broken schedule and forgetfulness... .hopefully. shoutout to finch because its actually really been helping??? i really hope i can stick to it this time and it doesnt become abandoned. speaking of abandoned we're also bringing duolingo back hi babygirl how i have not missed you. but i do want to like try to learn things so its fine! haha...

Oh ive also been trying out digital journaling? mostly just making little pages its really fun honestly. not much blogging actually happens, its mostly just deco, but hey it gives me something fun to do :D and ALSO ALSO ive gotten back into genshin sorta, i can kinda already feel it dying out but i wont uninstall it yet. i still want to try with it lol. uhhh what else... i wanna get my yt channel back up soon, i redesigned my mascot and stuff but i wanna work on myself a bit first!

ok i think im mostly done. ive just been trying to improve myself and my art, and i really hope some of this actually sticks this time. i'm going to stay determined and hopefully next post i'll be able to say i improved!

i never know how to start these augh. how do you in fact start a post where you just talk about yourself?? no idea but i guess this is a way to start it LOL. okay hi i am in project hell but not really since im having fun??? does that cancel it out? its fun though, ive been drawing a bunch, making a bunch of docs and socials, just an overall pretty fun time. im also getting into new fandoms which is always fun.

ive actually been trying to expand my fandom range, aka watching actual tv shows. i havent like done any of it yet but maybe the intentions still there...... i want to watch our flag means death, i hear people say its good and as a good omen fan i'll enjoy it so. maybe i'll check it out soon. ive also been going back to my roots and watching dantdms new series, its crazy how i was just a wee little child when i was watching his mod reviews and here i am. here he is with children my lord

nothing else crazy to talk about i guess. just been kinda busy doing my thing. i think the gmtk jam is coming up soon and probably by july i should start trying to find a team- i'll work on it when we get there.... but for now im just going to work on the things at hand. okay peace out gang

you guys will eventually learn that i am very, very bad with time. anyways, what have i been doing recently? well i feel like i should give an update on the dog situation since its been a month! he is still here with us and adopted. hes a very silly guy. his name is mister amd as of now he is not getting along with our cat, but our cat doesnt seem to mind, so at least theres that. lol. anyways hes the cutest, i love him so much and ive also been going outside a lot more since i have to walk him so yay! grass!

speaking of grass..... minus walking my dog, i have not been getting much of it because im too busy playing monster prom hehe. once i heard that monster con is coming out i was like "omg this is my chance to buy and play all of the monster prom games!" and that i did! i now have the full collection and ive been having so much fun. i think my favorite game is camp or roadtrip, and i am in love with milo. they're so soidfnksd yk??? ok enough of that, i might make a shrine for the games soon :]

another thing.... hmmm... well im going on a trip very soon! since its my moms birthday, im pretty excited for that. ive also been working on improving my art and maybe testing my skills in the music realm. one has been going a bit better then the other lol, i dont have much of a rhythm apparently. the art thing has been going well though! who wouldve thought sitting down and trying to learn anatomy would, shockingly, make my art better.

OH and another thing! lego monkie kid s5 soon perhaps! yes, looking at the trailer, the animation is a bit stiffer and i am a bit sad about that but im too excited about the thought of a new lmk trailer so its not that bad. i cant wait to see more nezha and red son WOO

okay enough insane rambling for today bye byee

ok so i remembered that mmd existed and that i learned how to use it so! ive been making a few things on there :D i actually made a few models beforehand for it named scarlet and blue, so ive been mostly using them for anything ive been making. i also just learned how to animate on there, so maybe i can finally stop using other peoples motions and use my own! its super fun, i love just looking for new things to experiment with. also seeing all the cool stuff people made, its just rly cool overall!

on other news, we're getting the a dog! at least for a month. hes a cute little guy. i just hope he doesnt get scared by our cat, who at this point, is bigger than him. when im writing this he hasnt come home yet, but i hope when he does everything will turn out alright!

and last little thing. one thing im very mad about. they removed ouran high school host club from netflix. which isnt a crazy thing, because you know, netflix changes their catalogue all the time, right? but the last time they removed an anime i liked, i couldnt watch it ANYWHERE without paying. i mean, it was gone from every streaming service. even crunchyroll, funimation. EVERYWHERE. and i can only pirate it! i still have but im dissapointed in netflix :[ also the anime was k-on for anyone wondering, one of my first animes its so cool

i think im done but i hope everyones having a good day, drink water, and im peacing out

Hi so this is mostly a test blog just to make sure this works but. i might as well rant about something anyways, yk?

ok so coding is so annoying bro. not only do things work only sometimes, if they work you try to put it in something and hey! it doesnt work anymore! or better yet, you get stuck on this one part in your code that just isnt working and you get super upset so you walk away, come back and then BOOM it was the most simple thing imaginable. i love coding man

anyways in terms of like actual blogging about my life lol, ive been pretty good. got a lot of things going on like working on this site, maybe making a game, working on a mod, and some other things i cant remember lol. ive also been working on my yt channel which has been pretty hype! its fun but very tiring to constantly work on videos, idk how these big yters do it honestly.

ok i think im going to shut up now BUT im pretty happy rn and my life isnt sucking so YEAH :]